Narrated Abu Hurairah r.a. : Allah’s Messenger p.b.u.h. said, “None of you should wish for death. If he is a righteous man, perhaps he may add to (his) good works, and if he is a sinner, possibly he may be repentant (in case he is given a longer life).”
(Al-Bukhari)
Already I have had another two protections, life insurance and 36 illnesses, haven't counted in the medical coverage by company yet. Lump them up together now with EPF, a sum of over Three Hundred Thousands Ringgit Malaysia is to be paid unto my said heir after my decease. Oh very unlikely I could own that much wealth even if I work my butt off entire life. It occurred to me that this is the most appropriate time for me to get hit by ...nauzubillahiminzaalik. Not that I wish for that... Astaghfirullah al'azim... no, no. It just made me ponder on death a lot, though this isn't the correct way, you know... we should be well aware and prepared, not imagining things as such! Well, like I said, I can't help it. (Why bother buying insurance if I ain't gonna enjoy it... cause I wouldn't know if I'd just be gone or would suffer permanent disability. Besides, I love the ones I'd leave behind, let them not be burdened by my debts.)
No doubt I still have many purposes to serve. I'm not gonna quit even though I realized I've been fretting over continuing my life (despite having learnt so many lessons... yeah I know). Come on, have I been diagnosed cancer or what!? Well, no right? No iffy... no! Umm, but neither have I been diagnosed cancer free. The potential is there.
In fact every second I sit behind my wheels, cruising on the road, maneuvering through traffic, be it heavy or smooth... hazard may await. I'm scared. Truth be told, I am scared! But as believers, we must remember that the world, life of this, is nothing but play and amusement, a deceiving enjoyment. [Quran V.6:32; 29:64; 47:36; 57:20] Little is the enjoyment of the world than the Hereafter. [9:38; 13:26; 28:60] The righteous person will be glad to meet Him. But I have no good deeds to present. I beg Your Mercy, ya Wasi'ăl-Karŏmi.
God, when You take me, when it's time to return, take me bi husnil khaatimah. Please, please Allah, do not take me bi su'il khaatimah.
You guys, shouldn't we contemplate on death a lot? Let's seek guidance together for I'm not the wise guy to give tazkirah here. Fear our Lord, shiver from it when Quran is recited and be heard, fall prostrate and weep. [39:2; 19:58] But despair not of the Mercy of Allah. [39:23; 12:87] Hasten on to do good deeds. Do not procrastinate. The hour is close.
Guys, forgive me if I have wronged you. And do guide me for I have made so many mistakes in life.
** Warning: Today, technology is helping bring Islam into the homes of millions of people, Muslim and otherwise. There is a blessing in all this of course, but there is a real danger that Muslims will fall under the impression that owning a book or having a database is equivalent to being a scholar of Islam. This is a great fallacy. Therefore, be aware that the technology is merely a tool, and not a substitute for learning, much less scholarship in Islam.
[As stated by University of Southern California
MSA Compendium of Muslim Texts]
